||[Nov. 14th, 2005|09:36 pm]
The Real Fat Anas
Hello ladies, |
How is everyone doing? Well me for i am not doing so well, i have had a lot of stress lately (see my lj.....oh and i would love if anyone else would like to be my lj friend for some much needed support at this time in my life!)well anyway i completely lost control of myself and i ate like a cow not once in a while but every fucking day. I didnt think anything of it because everything revolved around my family getting better so i never thought about myself. So i did gain some weight but surprisingly not much.
Then the wierdest thing happened though, well wierd in a good way. People always say that they "feel like they need to do something" but i never felt the actually feeling of the drive to do something(if that makes any sense i dont know how else ot describe it) Anyway the other day i was trying on jeans and i had one of those days where i hated everything about me and on me. Then after i tried on the jeans i was like you know what i need to get serious. You see the past month i have been saying i will get back on track for the past moth or so but sadily , embarassed to admitt also, i would eat breakfast lunch and dinner everyday. Not only that but i would be hungry 2 hours after breakfast, and i know people will say i dont belong here but just instead of ed-nos i went through an overeating time period (so i hope i am still welcome!) So then i decided to be serious i really did need to loose weight not just for looking good but to feel good. Now its like my mind just clicked all of a sudden and these past two days i did not really even try i just tried to cut down my intake of food but instead i found myself not hungry at all. I did not eat breaky or lunch. Yeah i know some girls will tell me its to fast of a change but i did not intentionally do it. Its like i could do it all along but i just never put my mind to it, then the moment i did i succeeded . Yes true its only been 2 days but i have not eaten snack i have been excercising and i dont even find myself wanting to eat snacks. Also when i do eat dinner the only meal i do eat during the day i dont overeat its like its not a struggle to eat. I thought the first few days bac on tack would be hard but theya re so easy. So anyhow i am back on track and it would be very very nice if i could have some girls to be my lj friend and really support me and i will def support you too!
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x-posted everywhere (sorry)
p.s. sorry i have not been around lately but ladies i promise i am back now and more ready to get this fat melted off than anyone ever has been